Masochist - Tonedeff.mp3

[00:00.00] 作曲 : T.Rojas
[00:00.00]Masochist （虐狂）-Tonedeff
[00:10.319]Everything happens for a reason
[00:12.268]And my reason to be's to see shit happen for a reason
[00:14.678]One event to the
[00:15.297]Next
[00:15.598]It's like I'm stuck at the box office with every second my clock tosses
[00:18.350]Into my face smacked with a case of fate wasted and lost causes
[00:21.52]I've been mocked and accosted
[00:22.489]To the point that I got nauseous
[00:23.968]Though my flow's been plugged enough to stop faucets
[00:25.457]I've thought often about tossing this awesome gift to the wind
[00:28.422]And start crossing over to
[00:29.468]Sin with this intention to blend that
[00:30.785]I get from
[00:31.265]Within
[00:31.467]I've protected my skin with a thin
[00:32.637]Layer of pride and showmanship
[00:34.176]But both my coats are ripped and
[00:35.269]I can't seem to decide on clothes that fit
[00:36.694]Supposing this rap shit actually pays off
[00:39.65]I'm wondering if it'll all be
[00:40.244]Worth it
[00:40.891]Cause this is what everyone in my life has ever been hurt with
[00:43.102]This curse this evil urge
[00:44.354]I feel for verses
[00:45.407]Is one of my life's real perversions
[00:46.971]I seal my curtains when I write
[00:48.557]I feel disturbance from the light
[00:49.867]I deal with dirt and yet
[00:50.760]I want to heal the earth and peel the surface to
[00:52.643]Reveal it's perfect
[00:53.740]And words I wield with purpose
[00:54.990]And yet nobody follows the plot
[00:56.834]They rather hear me rock off of the top
[00:58.747]There's pitfalls in my socks
[00:59.675]So I walk with caution
[01:00.899]Somebody halt the auction
[01:01.901]Cause my soul's on sale
[01:02.909]And I thought I lost it
[01:03.910]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life
[01:05.762]Then I'm gon'turn the other cheek
[01:08.905]Yeah
[01:09.466]Cause I hate the way you hurt me
[01:11.426]But I can't get enough of your love
[01:13.989]Love
[01:14.402]And who the hell am I supposed to be
[01:16.353]A holy priest holding a rosary
[01:18.75]Some type of bold stoic Moses of poetry
[01:20.457]Should I be holding heat to pose for the streets
[01:22.574]A total phoney If I said my name was '
[01:24.405]Tony'would you know it's me
[01:25.489]Supposedly T-O-N-E flow with ease over these bolder beats
[01:28.715]But the flow's too cheap to pay for groceries
[01:31.03]And in the throws of grief I choke and breathe
[01:33.23]Loaded with my parents hopes and dreams
[01:34.653]Yet I don't know if we both
[01:35.831]Believe
[01:36.396]I scope the scene and
[01:37.336]I'm watching these bills build up
[01:38.757]I'm nice with a day-job these niggaz write
[01:40.375]All day and still suck
[01:41.543]And yet they fill clubs
[01:42.635]Sell a trillion and feel
[01:43.959]I kill dubs
[01:44.707]But I don't have the mills to pay for real pub
[01:46.779]My chilled love melts on occasion
[01:48.827]Cause brainwashed niggaz only feelin'
[01:50.06]My track if Clue or Flex will play it
[01:51.958]Who you expect to say this shit if I don't
[01:53.727]What Cause I don't wanna be extorted
[01:54.936]By some cat who lets cash determine
[01:56.570]His playlists
[01:57.121]I'm searching for ways in
[01:58.394]But entrances are sparse when you're hard to
[02:00.209]Market
[02:00.713]F**k art cause thugs aren't the smartest targets
[02:02.460]And I'm not abstract enough
[02:03.969]So it seems backpackers are acting up
[02:05.563]And I thought it was half the battle
[02:06.805]Just to have the love
[02:07.738]And pack a truckload of skills
[02:09.102]Politics are I'll and yo it's real
[02:10.826]It seems I'm cruising
[02:11.535]And they're still using these crooked stones for
[02:13.310]Wheels
[02:13.850]And when you know the deal
[02:14.814]It doesn't evoke the most appeal
[02:16.94]Like stolen Kosher Meals
[02:17.196]Lemme propose a toast to heal
[02:18.397]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life
[02:20.393]Then I'm gon'turn the other cheek
[02:23.541]Yeah
[02:24.38]Cause I hate the way you hurt me
[02:26.74]But I can't get enough of your love
[02:29.175]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life
[02:31.177]Then I'm gon'turn the other cheek
[02:34.209]Yeah
[02:34.713]Cause I hate the way you hurt me
[02:36.717]But I can't get enough of your love
[02:39.533]I've sacrificed so many facets of life just to achieve this
[02:42.629]From Love and definitive reason to trust in agreements
[02:44.778]My family suffered a grievance when we discussed I was leaving
[02:47.477]Seeming substituted for tunnel vision
[02:49.200]And it probably crushed all their
[02:50.627]Feelings
[02:50.887]There's something appeasing in the corruption of demons
[02:53.136]Feeding me vehemently lustful delusions of bucks from succeeding
[02:56.248]But times up months it's exceeded
[02:57.815]Peeling the scabs off of cuts that are bleeding
[02:59.679]Knowing I ain't had it as tough as Jesus
[03:01.868]This shit doesn't compete or even touches what he did
[03:03.978]But will I be signed by 33
[03:05.412]Cause my teens were f**king depleted
[03:07.97]Blessed with a gift
[03:07.846]Equipped to assist in the destruction of heathens
[03:10.161]But please would god really want me snuffing emcees then
[03:12.66]Ha
[03:12.711]I must be conceited right
[03:14.10]Well I'm balanced out by the lack of self-esteem
[03:15.925]I've felt since I've learned how to read and write
[03:17.629]Over compensation spelled relief
[03:18.877]When the rhyme schemes are tight
[03:20.115]Then I feel the weight of a cheapened life
[03:21.570]When 5000people die
[03:22.720]Sob Sob Feel bad for the rap artist
[03:24.781]But pour your soul into something for responses
[03:26.594]That's half-hearted
[03:27.666]Terminate relationships on the basis of past hardships
[03:30.370]And then you'll see
[03:31.51]Why every review's like another line on my scarred
[03:33.230]Wrist
[03:33.760]This light-hearted voice becomes jailed by the darkness
[03:35.955]It's impossible to trap my lips when I have to spit
[03:38.448]I try to swim away
[03:39.469]But I keep getting dragged back in this
[03:41.468]Come to find my arms automatically swimming backwards
[03:43.842]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life
[03:45.762]Then I'm gon'turn the other cheek
[03:48.890]Yeah
[03:49.446]Cause I hate the way you hurt me
[03:51.395]But I can't get enough of your love
[03:54.240]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life
[03:56.409]Then I'm gon'turn the other cheek
[03:59.506]Yeah
[03:59.976]Cause I hate the way you hurt me
[04:02.82]But I can't get enough of your love
[04:04.941]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life
[04:07.249]Then I'm gon'turn the other cheek
[04:10.157]Yeah
[04:10.821]Cause I hate the way you hurt me
[04:12.574]But I can't get enough of your love