[00:12.92]I wake up on the pavement still drunk I must have also been in some kind of fight this time.[00:25.46][00:26.36]I wish I was a character in a TV show then the only I'd worry about would be relationships.[00:38.49][00:40.27]How could you? Katie said you walked her all the way home through the snow last night.[00:51.80][00:52.87]But you never told her how you felt not even a year later when she got so sick and passed away on that cold Christmas day.[01:08.13][01:19.86]I work really hard at working too hard, I'll stay up till two like successful people do.[01:32.00][01:32.95]After the service we always have coffee and I always the only one standing by myself.[01:45.75][01:46.32]Because it's easier to suffer than it is to take responsibility.[01:58.00][01:59.77]I will find peace after a few drinks or when I am asleep.[02:10.94][02:12.76]So as I'm coughing blood it hits me that I may have always done my best to avoid the things I found hard.[02:25.43][02:26.49]I try to sit up and reach my cell phone but my heart stops and I stare up at the snow falling down.[02:39.89][02:40.85]Buried under soft white snow when carols fill the air angels we have heard on high.[03:02.95][03:26.57]Scott said life is hard, I know easy feels just like being dead.