[00:00.250]Here I am again[00:02.303]Here I am sitting in the waiting room[00:05.476]Waiting for an appointment[00:07.361]That I had booked six months ago[00:10.261]I'm feeling very low[00:12.292]Yes, I was shitting bricks[00:14.351]At the prospect of existence without you[00:16.969]And so I gave it one more go[00:20.253]But my story didn't stick[00:22.565]And suddenly it clicked[00:24.602]Some allergies you tolerate and some habits, you just have to kick[00:36.983]I saw you on your back[00:38.979]Amongst the peanut shells[00:40.903]That were scattered on the floor of the big top[00:44.365]Right next to the overwhelming sense[00:47.236]Of impending doom, but no one even asked[00:50.798]Or mentioned anything to me about the elephant in the room[00:55.452]When suddenly it clicked[00:57.426]Some allergies you tolerate and some habits, you, yeah[01:01.491]You gotta bite the bullet and get it fixed[01:03.492]You gotta get it seen to, so see to it[01:05.491]That the story sticks[01:06.638]That the story sticks[01:07.634]That the story sticks[01:08.693]That the story sticks[01:09.668]You gotta bite the bullet and get it fixed[01:11.790]You gotta get it seen to, so see to it[01:13.677]That the story sticks[01:14.869]That the story sticks[01:15.941]That the story sticks[01:16.964]That the story sticks, ah[01:22.285]You always said that you'd both met and fell in love at the circus[01:24.690]And that's why you loved animals so much[01:27.154]So much so that you'd bought a big dog[01:28.958]With little ears and called it 'dumbo'[01:31.270]Which was a joke that got less and less funny every time[01:34.498]Obviously you brought the dog along that night[01:36.688]When you showed up otherwise alone, to my dinner party[01:39.531]Having already rung ahead to ensure that all of my dishes[01:43.022]Had been prepared in a completely nut-free environment[01:46.328]Now quipping that it was for the sake of your 'imaginary' husband[01:49.966]Because several years on from the wedding[01:51.873]That none of us were invited to[01:53.550]We still hadn't met him, even though you always said he was coming[01:56.689]Before suddenly he couldn't make it[01:58.577]Because he worked away a lot with work[02:00.592]But mainly because he didn't really exist[02:03.018]And you broke down in tears in my kitchen[02:05.354]Certain he was seeing somebody else[02:07.589]How reckless we'd all been to tolerate your fabricated reality[02:11.108]But until then I didn't have the guts[02:12.907]To put an end to the ever maddening scenes[02:15.169]So with a solemn nod and totemic silence[02:18.049]I walked over to the cupboard where I kept the snacks[02:20.607]Took a pinch of dry roast dust from the loose pegged bag[02:24.592]Sprinkled it into the upturned palms of your trembling hands[02:27.646]And said[02:28.688]'If you just rub some of this[02:30.126]Round the rim of his can then no one will know[02:32.505]But we'll all understand'[02:34.523]It takes real guts to fake being nuts[02:36.739]And it takes real nuts to break fake guts[02:47.832]You gotta bite the bullet and get it fixed[02:49.780]You gotta get it seen to, so see to it[02:51.801]That the story sticks[02:52.928]That the story sticks[02:54.007]That the story sticks[02:55.064]That the story sticks[02:56.064]You gotta bite the bullet and get it fixed[02:58.138]You gotta get it seen to, so see to it[03:00.195]That the story sticks[03:01.117]That the story sticks[03:02.209]That the story sticks[03:03.246]That the story sticks[03:04.993]Because stories that don't stick[03:06.325]Mean someone's bound to twig[03:08.383]Your alibis cooperate or they will be[03:11.743]Fed to all the pigs