Crow, Pt. 2 - Mount Eerie.mp3

[00:34.78]A crow that's being dreamed
[00:36.91]By a child who's being carried through the forest
[00:41.23]Sleeping wondering in her twilight half awareness
[00:45.49]Where her mother went
[00:47.11]I know that you died
[00:51.84]But in this child's crow dream you survive
[00:57.79]Beneath layers of magical symbolic wild animals
[01:03.11]Inhabiting the edges of our fogged over consciousness's
[01:09.17]Grasping for something to hold
[01:12.84]Something old
[01:15.77]Like a name cut into a stone
[01:20.24]Or a bird that will make eye contact
[01:32.56]That's where you live now
[01:37.34]Or at least that's where I hold you
[01:43.47]And we're still here without you
[01:49.00]Sleeping and the sun's coming up
[01:54.61]In the ruins of our household we wake up again
[01:59.90]Coming back into this
[02:05.43]Every day that comes the echo of you living here gets quieter
[02:11.87]Obscured by the loud wind of us now
[02:17.85]Wailing and moaning for you
[02:23.91]But also living talking about school
[02:28.38]Making food just surviving and still containing love
[02:33.89]Waking up again the baby that you knew is now a kid
[02:40.34]And when she looks at me with your eyes the shape of almonds
[02:46.51]I am stirred inside and reemerge
[02:50.92]I go downstairs and turn on CBC and make some coffee
[02:56.16]And boil two eggs and make two pieces of bread into toast
[03:01.36]And open the window and give the child some clothes
[03:05.59]And get us sitting at the table
[03:08.36]Where your chair still sits across from me watching
[03:13.94]I stand up to put on music
[03:18.40]Our daughter sees and asks for mama's record
[03:23.61]And she's staring at the speaker with this look of recognition
[03:29.19]Putting it together that it's you singing
[03:34.33]I'm sobbing and eating eggs again
[03:39.95]You're a quiet echo on loud wind
[03:45.35]But when I'm trying to I see you everywhere
[03:49.41]In plants and birds and in our daughter
[03:52.30]In the sun going down and coming up and in whatever
[03:58.03]And the myths that used to get told around the fire
[04:03.23]Where a seal's head pokes up through from underwater
[04:08.57]Crossing a threshold between two worlds yours and mine
[04:14.44]We were skeletally intertwined once
[04:18.66]But now I notice ravens instead
[04:24.84]I don't see you anywhere
[05:38.43]If you still hang in the branches
[05:51.94]Like burnt wood I will go out beneath
[06:03.19]With arms reached and run my fingers through the air
[06:14.38]Where you breathed touching your last breath
[06:27.66]Reaching through to the world of the gone with my hand empty