Concealed the outro (**** em rmx) - K.A.A.N..mp3

[00:01.72]My father used to tell me I was nothing more than worthless
[00:03.88]A stupid mother****er that would live without a purpose
[00:05.62]Put my thoughts upon a page so I could try and prove him wrong
[00:07.47]And every time I write a song I reminisce about the pain that I'm repressing in my brain so I don't ever feel alone
[00:11.47]And I've been living with depression so I wonder how this shit really begins
[00:14.27]I'm comfortable with the thoughts of vision and now it is
[00:16.27]I've been working on this record for a minute
[00:18.05]Still I feel like nothing that I do is good enough
[00:19.73]My insecurities are creeping in so they would seep in to the music
[00:22.08]Ain't it funny when other people see your pain as amusing?
[00:24.07]Abusing many a pill and numbing the way I feel 'til the point of my reality's the furthest thing from real
[00:28.00]The only thing I ever needed was a little piece of love and I couldn't find that in people so I would seek it in drugs
[00:32.24]And I wanted to be the greatest instead I'm facing the truth
[00:34.09]But the fact of the matter is that I'm losing it what's the use
[00:35.93]And I know I'm sounding repetitive lack the lust for living
[00:38.05]I pray that I be forgiven, I say let's take a picture
[00:39.92]For sinners to get the sentiment a critical acclaim to explaining it wasn't evident
[00:43.12]A premonition of my early death I'll make it prevalent malevolent confessing
[00:46.03]And if I was down and out I can't sell my soul to be relevant
[00:48.28]That rap shit got a pop
[00:50.08]I'm ignoring all of my problems
[00:51.20]I said I'd bury them deep
[00:52.15]But I'm actually terrified and my paranoia was verified cause I just realized I don't wanna make it to twenty-five
[00:56.09]A suicidal psychopath, a schizophrenic kinda guy that's looking for your empathy hoping that you'll remember me
[01:00.34]The message I provided collided within the melody
[01:02.16]A metamorphosism reliving giving debauchery
[01:04.23]The resurrection of a savior coming out of Nazareth where you could catch a laceration and a crucifixion
[01:08.14]Under what condition d'you make the decision moving like it's in a mild position living at the bottom wishing I was with it
[01:12.17]Couldn't tell the difference
[01:12.84]So tired of giving the false opinions
[01:14.21]My faith in the book that was written by other people
[01:16.02]They probably wrote with agendas
[01:17.12]So every role was intended for anyone to follow
[01:18.95]Attention, I got a testament
[01:20.28]Just like the book of Mark
[01:20.72]I'm sparking a revolution
[01:21.88]My story a revelation
[01:23.00]Amazing, I'd rather save it, debate it
[01:24.37]Everything on my mind
[01:25.36]While I was taking a mental picture
[01:26.70]OK, so my train of thought is evasive
[01:28.03]I'm faded within my memory
[01:29.12]From a daily addiction of always staying sedated and claiming I wanna make it
[01:32.03]I'm nothing more than a follower
[01:33.08]No apologies for it
[01:33.88]Gallivanting around like '**** I'm finally fre
[01:35.00]Don't know what I believe and I'm seething and barely breathing
[01:37.11]I was thinking of positivity
[01:38.15]The possibility that I'll be sane is like a fallacy
[01:40.09]I got a way to go and I'm showing you people gradually
[01:42.11]I been imagining a better life and then I contradict it
[01:44.24]The consequence of feeling like a loser with no confidence
[01:46.12]And I've been all alone, I'm tryna find the source of inner peace
[01:48.12]I suffocate the beat until the flow has been consumed
[01:50.02]I strangulate that mother****er, turn the tune and turn the night maroon
[01:52.06]And if I'm being honest, I think I'm losing my passion
[01:53.95]I'm passing on opportunities
[01:55.18]Giving in to distraction
[01:56.11]The problem's that I've been having is all of it's a facade
[01:57.89]It's quantity over quality
[01:59.15]Profit over the product
[02:00.02]But shit if it makes a dollar
[02:01.06]Enforcing my ****ing happines
[02:02.09]We'll get it radio play and then now make it a classic
[02:04.02]Who gives a **** if it's garbage
[02:06.17]And put him on a pedestal
[02:07.25]He'll eventually catapult to perpetual force
[02:09.00]The actual result distracting
[02:10.08]They forgot that mother****er was never decent at rapping
[02:11.91]They reminisce on the past and there ain't nobody original
[02:14.07]And take a nigga with talent that's about as big as a grain of sal
[02:15.92]But niggas stealing styles and never giving their credi
[02:17.10]A hypothetical pondering
[02:18.19]I put it on a paper for some people I'm being honest with
[02:20.02]Abolishing a novice and murdering his accomplice
[02:21.94]A complicated affair with the notorious hitter
[02:23.97]These habitual liars supplying a lot of ignorance
[02:26.09]It's all about an image, so everyone's irresponsible
[02:28.03]And if you got a positive message then it's impossible to overcome the current plan and rap a better obstacle
[02:32.07]It's illogical to think that
[02:33.00]The future is looking brighter
[02:34.01]When money comes into play than the vision will get distorted
[02:35.94]Cause you were forced into feeling by acting out of your character
[02:38.02]You lost your sense of pride that's inside
[02:39.44]Don't let them embarrass ya
[02:40.11]Barely making it now when you're coming up from the rubble
[02:41.86]Refuse to be in the rut
[02:42.90]Ain't no need for an introduction
[02:44.00]Accepting that shit's patheti
[02:44.94]It's different and impeccable
[02:46.10]Intelligent and highly respectable
[02:47.49]You're susceptible to this lyrical giant
[02:48.98]A tyrant acting defiant
[02:49.75]I'd rather do this alone
[02:50.89]My shit is really disgustin
[02:53.02]To practice my dedication by defecating the delicate
[02:55.12]Relegated with delegates to give them rigamortis
[02:57.04]Supported within a deficit
[02:57.98]Celebrated a reverence
[02:59.08]Televising my decadence
[03:00.20]From years of destitution
[03:01.03]The resolution's irrelevant
[03:02.08]It's gotten to the point where I can see that nothing's real at all
[03:04.03]It's leaving me appalled and
[03:05.12]I'm embarrassed I will get involved to mental regression for I have yet to evolve
[03:08.03]Got to find a spot to put my aggression before I'm gone
[03:10.05]But the pain that I feel has lasted so long
[03:12.00]So by the end of this song I'm praying for my desire cause I'm refusing to fake it
[03:15.00]I'd rather reform than retire so my generation remedial
[03:17.02]So mother**** an alliance aligning with preservatio
[03:18.61]I really can't believe this shit is happenin
[03:20.08]And you gotta be kidding me
[03:21.00]The only thing I was meant to be is the dopest mother****er that people will probably never see
[03:23.79]And if I never make it then I'm fulfilling the prophecy
[03:26.05]Everything that I write has been centered around my honesty