[00:20.49]If I could tell you how I really felt well I really probably wouldn't[00:23.82]At the bottom of the bucket got and bought some shit I shouldn't[00:26.48]And now I'm feeling crooked and my money is spent[00:28.84]Saved up for happiness but I was short by a cent[00:31.44]So I splurged, I couldn't find the words to express[00:34.03]Running circles in my mind till that shit was out of breath[00:36.80]And I just want to feel content but I won't[00:38.65]Cause all this pressure got me tight by the throat[00:41.31]It's just another long night, got home and laughed[00:44.27]Cause driving home going ninety almost crashed[00:47.17]At least someone's got my back[00:48.41]I like to think that it's my father looking down[00:50.57]Pardon my stupidity, I'll come around[00:52.60]And find my way up, back up on my feet maybe catch peace[00:55.62]Get a little bit of sleep[00:57.16]Cause in these troubled times we all looking for some solace[01:00.24]Mama's getting worried, I'ma be fine, I promise[01:02.58]It's hard to keep that hope when you staring at reality[01:05.30]Cause what's real is working nights for your salary[01:08.26]That rough shit in free time gets me thinking[01:10.47]No wonder everybody smoking herb and drinking[01:12.86]When winter comes I'll fold up freeze with the cold[01:15.70]Those dark months in the state are getting old[01:18.36]Maintaining my hope with a focus on the real[01:20.95]Put everything in music so don't ask me how I feel[01:23.60]I used to want to grow up, and now I want to grow down[01:26.25]A fast life always ends in a slow down[01:28.91]And holding to the hope is the everyday struggle[01:31.50]Just want to break free from this everyday bubble[01:34.02]I dream a new life and some complex shit[01:36.68]I'm more than what you heard on my compact disc[01:39.33]Can't slip, gotta grip to what I truly desire[01:41.74]But trying to finding happiness is making me tired[01:44.70]So I tell it like it is[01:46.31]I'm just a kid[01:47.53]I don't want to end up the way that you did[01:49.88]I got some bigger dreams that a sleep can't give[01:52.35]I'd rather have a smile than a big mansion[01:54.82]So I tell it like it is[01:57.47]I'm just a kid[01:58.14]I don't want to end up the way that you did[02:00.49]I got some bigger dreams that a sleep can't give[02:03.08]I'd rather have a smile than a big mansion