late nights near bizzaro lane - Godinho.mp3

[00:00.00] 作词 : Samuel Godinho
[00:01.00] 作曲 : Samuel Godinho
[00:13.08][Verse 1]
[00:13.47]I think 2018 was when it all started
[00:15.18]Beginning of my downfall becoming broken hearted
[00:18.33]I would say cold but that would be another lie
[00:21.00]And there's no reason too unless I'm tryna save my pride
[00:24.21]And ego is a damned thing destroys relationships
[00:27.00]And you would rather lie to who you love than
[00:28.92]Deal with a guilt trip, what does that say about you?
[00:32.28]I don't know
[00:33.03]Yeah you do
[00:33.66]It means that you're a coward and you'd rather try to fly the coop
[00:36.81]I don't think either of us wanted to admit
[00:39.27]The signs were there from the beginning that
[00:41.31]I would turn into a bitch
[00:42.93]And I don't cuss much these days but that was well deserved
[00:46.11]I wanna see the old me in a hearse
[00:48.27]Forgive my past self for his misgivings nah
[00:50.79]I can't until you do
[00:52.50]You're the one I hurt and put into a period of blue
[00:55.44]Take away the light and leave you begging to the moon
[00:58.11]While the shadows become mine and we just live in gloom
[01:01.02]Another song about my ex, oh come on Godinho
[01:03.75]Get your head out from the mud
[01:05.10]You know this life is a casino
[01:06.93]You know the house always wins
[01:08.58]You know that you were born to sin
[01:10.26]And you know she's not eating don't ask her why she's thin
[01:13.20]If you really cared you would've never did her wrong
[01:15.60]She never would've- your best friend that
[01:17.94]You be sharing hits with of the bong
[01:19.83]Never would've hurt him in the process of trying to get over you
[01:24.24]But, you know that you started his pain, don't try to act brand new
[01:27.33]Love is destructive I think you know the drill
[01:30.30]Your routine back then was every day to take a different pill
[01:33.72]Trying to feel the thrill until you fall ill
[01:36.30]Don't try to blame the drugs for your trauma
[01:38.67]You were born with it, root of all evil, let the demons visit
[01:42.33]Bad habits bore from a bad brain
[01:44.64]Disconnected to this Earth unless you feel a lot of pain
[01:48.33]Love never kept you grounded why should happiness
[01:50.94]Maybe you're just bitter cause she hated all your nastiness
[01:54.00]And she had a reason, violent acts were normal come and go
[01:57.24]Just like a season, pointing fingers isn't helpful so
[01:59.88]I never spoke of treason, but this one time we were arguing
[02:03.69]Late at night like usual
[02:05.22]Parked at Bizzaro Lane, you were calling me delusional
[02:08.58]Nothing new except this time you had called a lifeline
[02:12.33]You just wanted them to listen to the venom that I spew
[02:15.39]But I wasn't having it, took your apple watch hung up
[02:18.30]Right back to arguing, ten minutes later I get a call
[02:21.66]From my moms, asking me "yo where you at?"
[02:24.36]And she didn't say it calm come to find out
[02:26.94]Cops had pulled up to my home
[02:28.53]Woke my parents up in the middle of the night
[02:31.14]Just to say "we heard your son is beating on his wife
[02:33.75]Where's he at so we can talk to him?"
[02:36.15]But no one knew a thing they went to her house too
[02:38.94]Still couldn't find us I hadn't laid a finger on her
[02:42.03]Why should I be punished?
[02:43.41]There's more to that story but that's what I'll say for now
[02:46.53]Open up about my evils how I got this crown
[02:49.26]I'm the King of Grief
[02:58.53][Verse 2]
[03:12.90]2019 was even worse, I would tell you about it
[03:15.45]But I can't remember anything that happened
[03:17.82]I just know I kept messing up, kept telling lies
[03:20.55]Was still an awful person contemplating suicide
[03:24.27]I wrote a lot of notes and I mentioned your name
[03:26.91]My savior and my killer who grew tired of the game
[03:29.85]Just give me another chance I promise that I'll change
[03:32.88]Another chance another chance washed away in rain
[03:36.09]My garden started truly wilting and I saw the damage
[03:39.12]Nothing would be able to stop your urges to vanish so I
[03:42.27]Tried the best I could, borderline schizophrenic
[03:45.06]Manifested all my pain, you weren't perfect either but
[03:48.30]I know that I can take the blame, all roads lead back
[03:51.36]To that first mistake, to set me on the path I'm on now
[03:54.54]I think I see the daybreak and out from the light
[03:57.39]I can see the Seraphim coming, maybe its the revelation
[04:00.87]I can hear the drumming
[04:02.07]If I can't forgive myself I know that God will
[04:04.77]And he'll take me in his arms and finally I'll feel fulfilled
[04:08.55]Finally I'll, finally I'll feel fulfilled
[04:12.33]Heaven doesn't laugh only smiles and stares
[04:14.79]I truly wish you the best so I keep you in my prayers